~ I Found Your Dog Today ~

I found your dog today. No he has not been adopted to anyone.
Most of us who live out here own as many dogs as we want.
Those who do not own dogs, do so because they choose not too.
I know you hoped he would find a good home when you left him out here, but he did not.

When I first saw him, he was miles from the nearest house and he was thirsty and alone, thin and
limping from a burr in his paw. How I wished I could have been you, as I stood before him. To see his tail wag,
his eyes brighten as he bounded into your arms.
Knowing you would find him, knowing you had not forgotten him.

To see all the forgiveness in his eyes for the suffering he had known in his never ending quest to find you. ~ But
I was not you. And despite all my persuasion, his eyes see a stranger. He could not trust. He would not come.
He turned and continued on his journey. One he was sure would bring him to you.
He does not understand you are not looking for him. He only knows you are not there and his only thought
is he must find you. That thought is much more important than the food or water or the stranger that can
give him these things. ~ Pursuit seemed futile, I didn't even know his name.
I sadly drove home and filled a bucket with water and a bowl with food and I again returned
to the place where I had met him.  I could see no sign of him, so I heavy hearted left my
offering under the tree, from whence he had sought
his much needed sheltered rest from the searing sun. ~

You see he is not of the desert. When you domesticated him, you took away any instinct of
survival out here. His purpose demands that he travel through the day,
he sadly doesn't realize that the heat and the sun will claim his life.
He only knows that he must find you.

~ I waited hoping fervently that he would return to the tree and also praying that my gift to him,
would build the special element of trust, so I could remove the burr from his paw,
then take him home and give him a
cool place to lie and also to try to help him understand that,
that part of his life with you was gone forever. ~
He did not return that morning neither at dusk, the food was still there untouched.
And I fretfully worried. ~

Please you must understand that many people would not attempt to help your dog.
Some would run him harshly off, others would call the county
and the fate that you thought you thought you had saved him from would be
fastly pre-emptied by his suffering for days without food and water. ~
I returned again the following morning only to find the food and water untouched.
Oh if only you had been here to  call his name.
I began pursuit in the direction he had taken yesterday ~
With each step, doubt overshadowing my hopes of finding him.
His search was so very desperate for you,
it would take him many, many miles in just 24 hours. ~

It's hours later and I have found your dog, his thirst has stopped, it is no longer a torment to him. ~
His hunger has disappeared. He no longer aches. The burr in his paw will now not bother him evermore. ~
You see your dog has been set free from all his heavy burdens. You see your precious dog has died. ~

I kneel beside him and I curse you for not being there yesterday,
I curse you also for not being a decent human being
and because you decided you did not want him anymore,
you dumped him in a blazing desert oh so hot through the day, but oh so very, very cold at night.
Yet still I wish you could have been there just so I could see the sweet soft glow,
if just for a moment, in those now so vacant eye's.
I pray though I know God has taken him to that wonderful peaceful beautiful pain free place.
That I sincerely hope that you had hoped he would be able to find in an earthly home. ~

But Oh sweet Jesus if only you knew the pain and the suffering he went through and I agonize,
because in my heart I know that if he were to awaken and just for a second I could be you,
his eyes would sparkle with joy and recognition and his tail would thump with such happiness

~ If only ~             ~ Author unknown ~